Baby Blocked
As some of you may know…Miss Elle Botz is going to have a baby. I’m excited. To say the very least of the possible things I could say, I will say I am excited.
I am also terrified. Curious. Impatient. Overjoyed. And…blocked.
I don’t mean blocked in the way of the over sharing pregnant woman who suddenly finds it acceptable to share every detail of her body and its functions…because…well..gross.
I mean I am blocked creatively. My goal was to have my first novel, Waking Charley Vaughan, edited and ready to print by February. I don’t even have all of my edits done yet. Something happens every time I try to sit down and write. Actually no, that’s the problem. Something doesn’t happen every time I sit down to write. No words. No thoughts. No good ideas. No bad ideas…nada…zip…zilch…zero…nothing. On the rare occasion that I do get some words out…it’s nothing good. Or at least, nothing I feel good about.
This is the second post or thought that I have successfully written down in four months. And to call this successful may be a loose use of the word. It’s strange to be so excited on the one hand, and so utterly bummed out on the other. Writing is a huge part of who I am…it’s what I do to relax, it’s how I express myself, and it’s one thing that I do regularly that I get to look at, be proud of, and say “I created that”.
And yes, I know, I know. I will get to look at Baby Botz and be proud and say “I created that…” but, this is different. I haven’t even been able to write to the baby: something else which is killing me. A baby journal should be a given for someone who prides herself as a writer. And yet, I have a blog full of half finished entries, and a baby journal with five entries started, and zero entries finished.
So my question to you, my friends and fellow writers is this: how do I unblock myself? Do they make a mental laxative?
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I am not sure if this is a real question or if it is fictional but I am treating it as real. My advice to you is to realize that when you do something because you enjoy it then it will always come out better than we have to do it for money. That is the reason that most musicians first album is MUCH better than their 4th but keep in mind that there are rare exceptions to that statement. As far as having no ideas the one thing I learned early in life is that anyone that claims to have “creative block” is lying. There is no such thing as it is a fabricated term for being burned-out. There is a new story to be told everyday. Think about some of the dumbest movies you have ever seen. For me “Dude Where’s My Car?” comes to mind. There is a story about 2 guys who forget where the last place there car was so for the next however long we the audience go on an adventure with them to find their car that was right where they thought it was in the beginning. Is every bit of the movie realistic? Of course not, as it is’nt intended to be realistic nor was it intended to be the greatest thing ever wrote or greatest film made. Just something to make money and it did. Personally I like to sit on a bench at a park to observe people living their life. One of the parks by my home has a bunch of tennis courts as well as being located beside a cemetery. Maybe the funeral for the person was a tennis instructor 30 years ago so their burial brings their life full circle and so right there are 2 key ingredients. Maybe I am sitting at the pharmacy waiting for a prescription to be filled and in walks a person with a busted nose and missing hand to pick up pain meds. I could talk to the person and ask what happened or I could make up my own story of what happened. Either way there is a story to be told whether true or not. Hopefully some of what I have told you will help if you really do have a problem and if you dont then congrates you duped me!! haha lmfao
DISCLAIMER: I personally suffer a block where it isnt that I cant tell a story but I cannot get the right words from my head to the end of my finger tips and if I do, the words come out like a drunk monkey wrote em. For instance I may wish to write; “the atmosphere was electric with anticipation for the killer to have the noose around his neck”. Unfortunately for me it may come out as; ” the people were ready to see him die”. My only remedy is to write the latter and come back to it in a few days, weeks, or whenever I am able to get my point across the way I desire. I can always go back and tweak things later but in the meantime I think it is more important just to get em out on paper.
I think this is a fantastic read, Elle! I am sure you will get unblocked before you know it. Can’t wait to see pics of baby Elle, er I mean Botz!